People like me who just want somewhere to share our thoughts about our lives.

People who don’t have thousands of followers to try to impress.

People who stay away from the crazy drama that happens on here.

People who write, people who have thoughts, people who want to create something other than just a “pretty” blog. 

I just want to follow people who have seemingly real lives, real problems, real feelings. 

Sheesh. 

Any cheerleaders will know what I mean. The heat in the gym during the summer is…it’s an experience to say the least. But when it rains, it disappears for a few moments. Agh. Summer nights in the gym. Why did I have to get old? :(

I have a lot to get done in the next few days. Tomorrow and Friday are major, major work days. I need to get a PT done on each day. I also have to do a 12 page paper, a legal memo, and a 30 word glossary for Monday (that is going to be difficult!). I’ll be pulling another all-nighter tonight to get today and yesterday’s work done. My teacher has been so, so understanding. I’ve been behind ever since I missed the Friday lecture when I had my IUD inserted, and he’s just letting me get things done at my own pace. I really appreciate his kindness. If I can get the two postings done tonight, I’ll be caught up, though. Then I have tomorrow and Friday’s postings, and then I’m done with those. Starting on Monday, it’s one week until the LSAT, which means I’m going to fall off the face of the planet. I’m going to push for 3+ PT’s a day, with corrections and studying. Thursday and Friday I’m gonna go for 5 each day, and then calm down Saturday and Sunday with 2. That’s a lot, a lot of PT’s. Oh! On Sunday (next Sunday, the 10th), I’m also going to go find the building that I’m taking the LSAT in. And sit near it. And cry. :) Not really.

But, really, I’ve felt really, really down the past few days…maybe weeks? I don’t know. I just don’t feel like myself. I don’t feel motivated, I don’t feel like I care about the LSAT, I just am not feeling well. I’m…sad feeling. I guess I should’ve expected to feel this way with my body readjusting to new hormones/losing hormones, etc. etc., but I wasn’t expecting to want to lay in bed and cry all day. 

The LSAT does NOT determine my self worth. It doesn’t define me as a person. And my life will go on whether or not I get a 170 or higher. I’ll be okay. My life is going to go on. It will. And it will be okay. 

Here comes the storm, doo doo doo dooo. Here comes the storm, an’ I say, it’s alright doo doo doo doo doo doo. 

And I have so much work to get done! Ready, set, GO!

PS. No more shopping until you start work again, hoebag.